News for the ‘THINGS THAT HAPPEN’ Category


Without any sort of spectacle, there it went, my 4 1/2 years at university. For reasons that have been explained infinitesimal times to others, yet still unknown to myself. I didn’t attend my convocation. The boat has now sailed, and I’m taking a bus.

The bus that I took every single day for my senior year is as it always was, nothing has changed. My iPod rewound to the school days, music of back then. All the songs that were shuffled back and forth, placed in between various play lists, reappeared: from the entire discography of Dragonette to Eric Hutchinson’s All Over Now (a must listen for after exam anxiety) to Phoenix to the days passed with Lady Gaga’s glamour. I heard it all, it’s just a reminder. The bus is slightly empty today. I can’t recall whether exams have already started by this time or it’s just an odd time to be going to school.

The peace and quiet, the crisp winter wind seeping through the window sills. The familiar sights, the unfamiliar faces. I can’t help but feel nostalgic. In a mere 20 minutes. I would’ve graduated. Even with my diploma in hand…..

With what do I go on?


somehow felt super emotional during that day so I scribbled this down on my notebook. I think it might have been hunger. now that I’ve fed myself, it feels okay again. But still feeling pangs of anxiety about the future. ..PANGS of it.

Posted: December 8th, 2010
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facebook, why i dont have it

a coworker recently returned from taiwan and wanted to organize dinners together.

another classmate created an event and invited over 50 people for a “small” gathering.

i am often out of the loop, because i dont have facebook.

in an absolutely failed attempted to contact my classmate about the guest list, in the hopes that there won’t be any surprises when i arrive at the party seeing the people that hate me the most there…

yup, i got no replies as who is going to be there. then i got a little bit mad at my friend for not replying…but this really could all be avoided if I JUST HAD FACEBOOK.

i’m going to explain here why i dont have facebook, although most people dont even notice, but some people prod me on missing events or “you made me lose a friend!” …(..yeah i’m sorry for your loss) …

one of my good friends had facebook after moving away to another city in hopes of contacting her friends. but instead, she just got assaulted by this creepy neighbor (on campus) who kept wanting to date her. although these kind of situations never (i’m not being modest, never) happen to me, i felt like being cautious.

but actually not really since im not really like that. i dont mind sharing pictures, or wall posts, or music, or whatever with people. But, i hated facebook, so a few weeks after i finished my exams, i deactivated it. i’ve deactivated my facebook numerous times before, in lieu of hoping to not see someone, or studying..but have majorly failed on all fronts; i really DID need it while in school (contacting those damn people that are in your fucking group project that they assign to FOURTH year students)…

while i was deactivating my facebook, i thought it would be just temporary, in a few days i would succumb the pleasure that is checking my wall repeatedly to see if someone had left me a post…! I really REALLY want to see what my “friends” are doing this weekend! I can’t wait to see their pictures! yeah no i don’t want to see any of that..

so a week passed, then another, and now half a year have passed. i dont have facebook and i feeell greaaatttttt!

i went for food one late late night with two friends who both don’t have facebook. one of them thought i was still drinking the kool-aid. so when he found out that I too have quit we all had celebratory shots of….tea! because he had to drive and it’s cruel to drink in front of someone who also loves to drink. i’d be sad for sure…then the forever alone meme would pop up then we’d all be sad…

anyways, it’s refreshing! i love it, i love not being connected (says the person who’s addicted to twitter…not the same though imo), i love it for people not to know where i have been or are going, or who i am talking to all the fucking time.

i also kind of have nothing in common with the friends on facebook. those that i do have things in common i can contact via phone or text or even, shock gasp omfg, email.

its just in my opinion, that if you really want to be my friend, or that we really click or something. we’d already be good friends, or you’d pick up the phone and give me a call, not caring about pride or image. because that’s what friends are.

it’s an amazing feeling, and i have absolutely nothing against facebook, but, take the plunge, you can do it, i know you can. ;)

i also dont have MSN anymore but I use gchat for replacement.

(basically the moral of the story is, i dont particularly care for most of the people that i went to school with)

Posted: December 1st, 2010
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My Friend the pharmacist

i think i’ve maxed out the allotted number of melodramatic posts for this year…

Posted: November 9th, 2010
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